Views: 239 · Added: 11 days ago
... I need some suggestions regarding the ridiculous amount of money I spend on social media games. I set a budget each month to allow myself a little money to spend buying tokens, etc. but always exceed that amount. Any suggestions you can offer will be greatly appreciated.
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Views: 221 · Added: 12 days ago
As I expected my wife had plans to spank as a valentines presant and I can hardly sit down to write this blog as my bottom is very swollen and sore.
My wife had just cut my hair tonight and while I had a shower she took out the spanking chair and placed it in front of the dining table.
She put on her black leather pants and 4 inch high healed ankle boots and got ready to give me a good hard spanking over her knees.
She retrieved the wooden bathbrush, her otk cane and the long thin cane and placed them out in the open so I would know what was going to happen as soon as I got into our livingroom.
When I finally finished my bath and came into our livingroom, she was sitting on the spanking chair with a wicket smile on her face.
There is my naughty boy she said in a stern voice.
I blushed deep red and got an instant erection in my underpants, from seing my wife sitting on the spanking chair in her black leather pants.
Have I been a nauhgty boy I asked and tried hard not to show my wife the excitement I was feeling and showing.
You are always a naughty boy she replied and and tonight will be a maintenance spanking for you my naughty boy.
That does not mean it will be plesant for you I promise you that she said sternly.
You are going to have a very sore bottom when I get throuhg with you my wife said and placed the wooden bathbrush in her lap.
I was then told to stand in front of her and put my hands on my head.
As I stood there she locked my hand restraints to my wrists I felt very nervous at that point.
She them put on a pair of black leather gloves and pulled my jeans and underwear down to my ankles.
Feeling embarassed I stood in front of my wife about to be spanked and I had a very hard erection pointing straight in her face.
Stand on my right side you naughty boy she said in a stern voice and I obeyed her right away.
My wife picked up the wooden bathbrush and looked me straight in the eyes.
Over my knees naughty boy.
I palced myself over my wifes leather clad knees and felt my erection pressing against her firm thighs.
Very embarassed about that I felt my wife lock my hand restraints around the leg of the spanking chair so I unable to put my hands back to protect my bottom as she spanked me.
My wife placed her left hand on my hip and placed the bathbrush on my bare bottom.
Let this be a lesson to you and started spanking me very hard.
I had absolutely no say in anything and just had to lay across my wifes leather clad knees and take the spanking she was giving me like a good little boy.
It hurt and stung like crazy and before long I was fighting to hold my tears back.
But as always there was no escape from that evil wooden bathbrush and after 5 minutes of non stop spanking I was broken and felt tears running down my cheeks.
It sounds like you are learning your lesson naughty boy, but I am just getting started my wife said and kept spanking me very hard.
After 10 minutes my wife put the bathbrush down and gave me a lecture in good behavior and the consequenses of naughty bahavior.
I tried to stop crying and answer her when she asked me a question, but my bottom stung bad and it was impossible for me.
Well now it is time to finish my nuaghty boys spanking my wife said and picked up her otk cane.
She drew her right arm back and started spanking me very hard and fast
That made me start to cry freely and kick my legs in agony and pain but my wife took no notice and kept on spanking me, very determined to teach me a good hard lesson.
I gave up fighting and just layed limb over my wifes leather clad knees and sobbed as she spanked my bare bottom hard with the cane.
Finally after 10 minutes of spanking with the cane she stopped my punishment and unlocked my hand restraints.
I was told to stand up and go to the corner and be ashamed of myself.
I was told not to rub my bottom and keep my hands at my side.
There I stood and tried to stop my sobbing and desperately wanted to rub the heat and pain in my bottom away.
I did not dare do so, because I would be put back over my wifes knees and get another spanking.
Just when I thouhgt my punishment was over my wife tol me to come out of the corner and bend over the spanking chair.
I did as I was told with tears in my eyes and saw how my wife took her position behing me.
Looking back I could see my wife in her black leather pants with the cane in her hand and got a hard erection again.
Then she gace me a blistering caning with the long thin cane that left me bawling my eyes out
My erection was gone again after 5 swats of the cane.
I stood on shaking legs and tried to keep the posiyion as my wife made the cane impact again again.
I was an absolut mess of tears and sweat and I fought very hard to last throuhg the caning my wife was giving me.
Finally my wife stopped caning me and told me to get back in the corner and keep my hands at my side and not to rub my bottom or she would spank me again untill I did as she said.
After 30 minutes of cornertime I was told to come to my wife whowas now sitting on the spanking chair again.
I had to thank her for the lovely valentines presant she had just given me and I did.
Then she took me over her leather clad knees again and rubbed some cold cream into my swollen and very sore bottom.
I know I am going to sleep on my stomack tonight and I will do so like a happy man.
Thanks honey for giving me such a lovely valentines day presant
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Views: 210 · Added: 12 days ago
Internet radio, "Treasure Island Oldies," brings you four hours of golden oldie love songs for Valentine's Day. Just hit the "Listen" speaker about six inches down from the top for the archived February 8th Valentine show, a four hour stream. The broadcast opens with "Baby, I Love You" by the Ronettes and closes with "Goodnight my Love" by Jesse Belvin. Here's the complete playlist:
Hour Artist Name
1 Ronettes Baby I Love You
Elvis Presley Burning Love
Dave Clark Five Because
Weekly Feature: Coca Cola Spot Drifters
Drifters Sweets For My Sweet
The Stereos I Really Love You
Weekly Feature: One Hit Wonder
Art & Dotty Todd Chanson D'Amour
Weekly Feature BBC: Big Beatles Classic
Beatles P.S. I Love You
Weekly Feature: Made in Canada
Paul Anka Hello Young Lovers
Carl Carlton Everlasting Love
Sam Cooke Cupid
Weekly Feature: Lounge Double
Frank SInatra My Funny Valentine
Dean Martin That's Amore
Weekly Feature: Wheel of Travel
Smokey Robinson & The Miracles You've Really Got A Hold On Me
Brook Benton / Dinah Washington A Rockin' Good Way (To Mess Around and Fall in Love)
Dave Clark Five Do You Love Me
Delfonics La La Means I Love You
Clarence "Frogman" Henry (I Don't Know Why) But I Do
Weekly Feature: Instrumental Gem
Paul Mauriat Love Is Blue - L'Amour Est Bleu
2 Jefferson Airplane Somebody To Love
Captain and Tenille Love Will Keep Us Together
Association Never My Love
Weekly Feature: Coca Cola Spot Aretha Franklin
Aretha Franklin Baby I Love You
Weekly Feature: Top 5 Countdown 1957
Guy Mitchell Singing The Blues
Tab Hunter Young Love
Pat Boone Don't Forbid Me
Sonny James Young Love
Elvis Presley / The Jordanaires Too Much
Harold Dorman Mountain Of Love
Jelly Beans I Wanna Love Him So Bad
Ray Charles Singers Love Me With All Your Heart
Barry White I'm Gonna Love You Just A Little More Baby
Bobby Vinton Roses Are Red (My Love)
Raiders Love Music
Weekly Feature: Another Lost Treasure
Johnny Ace Pledging My Love
3 Beatles All You Need Is Love
10cc The Things We Do for Love
Otis Redding I've Been Loving You Too Long (To Stop Now)
Weekly Feature: Coca Cola Spot Nancy Sinatra
Nancy Sinatra Love Eyes
Weekly Feature: Rick's Rare Rock & Roll Relic
Avons Our Love Will Never End
Weekly Feature: Tom Locke Moment In Time
Impressors Do You Love Her
Ben E. King Amor
Cream Sunshine Of Your Love
Mel Carter Hold Me, Thrill Me, Kiss Me
Jingle Quiet Numbskulls I'm Broadcasting MG Boss TIO
Al Green L-O-V-E (Love)
Feature: Compare The Hits
The Clovers Love Potion No. 9
The Searchers Love Potion No. 9
Weekly Feature: Sound of the 70s
Exile Kiss You All Over
Weekly Feature: Voice Your Choice Winning Song
Neil Sedaka Stairway To Heaven
Ed Townsend For Your Love
Dells O, O, I Love You
Weekly Feature: Another Lost Treasure
Joe Dowell Bridge Of Love
4 Four Tops Baby I Need Your Loving
Presidents 5 10 15 20 (25-30 Years Of Love)
People I Love You
Weekly Feature: Coca Cola Spot Troggs
The Troggs Love Is All Around
Weekly Feature: Novelty Tune of the Week
Carefrees We Love You Beatles
Weekly Feature: Hits From Across The Pond Fay Greenwood
Matt Monro Portrait Of My love
Jerry Butler & Betty Everett Let It Be Me
Cleftones Heart And Soul
Weekly Feature: The Rock And Roll Reunion
Clovers Love Love Love
Playmates What Is Love
Jimmie F. Rodgers Oh-Oh, I'm Falling In Love Again
Gene Vincent & His Blue Caps Lotta Lovin'
Fats Domino I'm In Love Again
Fats Domino It's You I Love
Weekly Feature: Spot Dance
Nat King Cole Darling Je Vous Aime Beaucoup
Flamingos I Only Have Eyes For You
Ray Charles I Can't Stop Loving You
Weekly Closing Theme
Jesse Belvin Goodnight My Love
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Views: 177 · Added: 12 days ago
Happy Valentine's Day! It is a fridge day by me and I am opting to do a cardio workout inside today instead of hurting myself in the -20 bellow windchill. I just hope to fit my long run in tomorrow. It will very be disheartening to have to report to my disciplinarian that I have already have a demerit. It has been discussed and agreed that I needed a little bit more incentive to keep me motivated. My new long distance disciplinarian BackonTrack has agreed to help me. With him keeping me in line and all the wonderful feedback with this blog I feel I have a chance to succeed.
Views: 286 · Added: 12 days ago
So i saw fifty shades of grey last night and all i can say is....freaking wow! The end upseted me though just like the book. But i enjoyed myself. :) it even gave me the courage to tell my friend that i went with last night about my inteest in spanking and discipline lol. She was not judgemental or anything which made me happy. Wehad lots of fun last night at the bars and karaoke, strange happenings happened with a very drunk guy but it was cool lol, although almost got into an accident,BUT I WASNT DRUNK!! but one ofmy new online friends thinks i should be spanked...he would do it but he can't Anyway if you are thi king of seeing the movie id go!
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Views: 212 · Added: 12 days ago
Six months ago I thought my life - at least the kinky part - was over. The passing of my beloved wife had left me without a spanker or any outlet for my kinky desires. We'd never really participated in the scene or attended events - there was no need. We gave each other everything we needed, and we greedily chose not to share ourselves with anyone else.
Then she was gone, and I was alone.
Not alone, not really. I still had my vanilla friends and my daughter, who became my rock when I needed one. But I didn't know anyone kinky. Who was going to spank me, or be spanked by me, now?
So I got a FetLife account to go with my SpankingTube account, worked on my profile, and started attending munches and meeting people. It was hard - I've never been particularly outgoing. Most of my friends would describe me as quiet and reserved. But I went. And I kept going back even when I didn't feel like it, when no one talked to me or sought me out. Eventually, people got used to seeing me around and I started making friends. I attended some events even though I didn't do much but socialize at them. I was far too inhibited to play.
Time passed, I made more friends, got spanked a few times, and even dished out a spanking or two of my own. I started feeling like I was part of a community, and eagerly sought out ways to contribute.
When I went to the regular Wednesday evening gathering of kinksters at a local bar this past week, my friends had brought trays of cupcakes, balloons, and a card everyone signed. It really made me feel good.
Then last night, one of the lovely ladies who's spanked me several times now picked me up and we went to dinner with other kinksters at a local Thai restaurant. Afterwards she and another Domme went back to my place where they proceeded to give me the loveliest birthday spanking I've ever experienced. I was in total heaven - the first time I've ever been spanked by two ladies at the same time.
I feel like I've finally really come home for the first time in my life. I've always felt like an outsider, but now I'm part of something bigger than myself.
Next weekend I'll be attending a Lupercalia (look it up) party a local spanko group is throwing. I'm betting this time I won't be too inhibited to play, especially considering both of my birthday-spanking Dommes will be there.
So I guess what I'm trying to say here is thanks. Thanks for accepting me, thanks for making me part of your lives, thanks for giving me a family of people like me to join and celebrate life.
And if you read this and thought, "That's nice for him, but I could never do anything like that" I'll bet you're wrong. You don't have a lot to lose by putting yourself out there, and you've got a lot to gain. Look at me - I gained a life, a family, and a community. You could too - you'll never know if you don't try.
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Views: 414 · Added: 12 days ago
da mir meine Nachbarn heute morgen die ganze Zeit auf die Nerven gegangen sind mit ihrem blöden Sägen... hab ich Rache genommen ....
Sie haben ihren fetten dicken silbernen Mercedes heute bei uns auf dem Grundstück stehen damit kein Stück von dem Baum den sie abgesägt haben drauf fällt..... tja und da hab ich mir gedacht das ich ihnen doch mal zeige was es heißt wenn man mir um halb 8 den Schlaf raubt!!!!
Da ist mir wohl aus versehen das Sternchen abgebrochen...na ups.... jetzt hab ich einen neuen Schlüsselanhänger :)))
because my neighbor this morning all the time went on my nerves with her stupid saws ... I have taken revenge ....
They have their fat thick silver Mercedes today at the property so are not a piece of the tree they have cut down it falls ..... oh well and I thought to myself that I still see them sometimes what it means when I robbed at 7:30 sleep !!!!
Since I probably accidentally canceled the star ... na ups .... now I have a new keychain :)))
Views: 184 · Added: 13 days ago
Lori was in the bathroom brushing her teeth, looking forward to the romantic Monday that Tom had arranged for them. She could hear Tom downstairs as he switched on the radio in the kitchen, she gave herself a little smile in the mirror, before rinsing her teeth. Then she heard his voice shouting up to her.
"Lori! Are you trying to wind me up?"
She pulled her dressing gown tighter around herself and opened the bathroom door, standing looking down the stairs she sees that Tom is holding up two envelopes.
"Did you send this extra one to wind me up?" Tom asks her, with a doubting look on his face.
"I don't know what you mean," Lori replied as she made her way down the stairs.
"Well, I sent this card," Tom said, breaking the mystery of Valentine's Day slightly, "but I didn't send this one. So who did?"
"Nah, I'm not falling for this; you sent them both so that you could start the day of with an early morning bum tanning. I know you too well, Tom!" Lori replied laughing at her lover.
Tom's face darkened at Lori's laughter, and it dawned on him that the card was genuine and not just her winding him up. As he looked at her he noticed that she could not hold eye contact with him, this was turning out to be not funny at all.
"So do you know who it is from then?" Tom demanded.
Lori looked down at her bare feet, as she fidgeted from foot to foot, biting at her lower lip she shook her head, then finally said, "No not really."
"What do you mean not really? Either you know or you don't know."
Lori sniffed and looked on the verge of tears. "Well, I'm not sure; it could be from one of the guys at work I suppose, maybe."
"Oh yeah! Which one?" Tom shouted.
"Well, I don't know do I?" Lori said still shifting from foot to foot. "I could be any of them, you know fooling around, a bit of banter."
"A bit of banter?"
"Well everyone does it at work don't they?" Lori said looking very guilty.
"I don't, you are telling me you spend all day at work flirting with anything in trousers, is that what you are saying?"
"Well kind of, but you make it sound all dirty and it isn't." Lori said pleadingly.
Tom took hold of Lori's hand and marched her over to the sofa, sitting down Tom said. "Get that dressing gown off and get over my knee, and this isn't going to be a fun spanking!"
"Please, Tom this was supposed to be a special day!" Lori whined.
"Don't worry it's going to be special all right, now get a move on!"
Lori stared at Tom, her lovely heart-shaped face in her best sulky look, her blue-green eyes looking pleadingly, almost begging for tacit forgiveness. Her silent look of regret didn't work as Tom repeated his instruction. Slowly Lori loosened the cloth belt on her fleecy gown, still looking at Tom to see if there was any break in his resolve. There wasn't. As she slipped out of her gown and let it fall to the floor, she stood there in her Sloggi mint green (Tom's favourite.) two piece set. Tom pointed at the little shorts and said.
"By the way don't think they are staying on because they aren't."
"Tom please, they are so thin....." Lori pleaded her fingers hovering above the waistband of her boy shorts.
"Well, if they are so thin, it won't make any difference, so get them off."
Lori made a little theatrical stamp of her feet and snorted at Tom, but then obediently, slowly slipped them down her legs. Her shaven crotch was now coming into view as she reluctantly lowered her pants. Then Lori eased herself over Tom's lap, she had a little secret smile to herself, as she felt his excited state through the thinness of his PJ's, prodding at her tummy.
Her smile didn't last long, Tom's hand came down hard on her naked buttocks, the impact almost taking her breath away. Lori knew now that this was not going to be a fun spanking. Tom was annoyed, to say the least, they had both taken time off work for a special romantic Valentine's, and yet here he was spanking his girlfriend for being an outright self-confessed flirt.
"No more tight blouses at work for you girl. No more flashing your headlights to all a sundry. Eh?"
Apart from little squeaks and screams, Lori Stayed silent to Tom's question. His spanking had taken her by surprise, by shock actually. She had never expected to him react with such gusto. His hand rained down on her proffered buttocks, fast and hard. Before she had time to react to one hand fall, another would come down on her quickly reddening bottom. Instead of the typical spanking warmth, she was feeling an intense heat building up in her.
"God I hope he doesn't see my credit card statement." She thought to herself.
"I asked a question girl!" Tom said through gritted teeth, as he laid on an especially hard flurry.
"I won't... I'll wear loose jumpers... I'll... please Tom stop!" Lori pleaded as her view of the carpet beneath became a misty blur.
She couldn't help herself; her legs started to flail around, taking on a life of their own. All this did was open up to Tom new areas for chastisement, she now found her inner thighs and the tops of her legs coming into Tom's spanking range. All she could do was grit her teeth again, and to pray for him to stop.
Stop he did.
Tom helped his tearful girlfriend back to her feet, wiping the tears from her eyes, she looked at him and gave him weak sorrowful smile.
"Well, that will do for a start," Tom said. "now go in the kitchen, and fetch me the green plastic pallet knife."
"Wha... what for, what do you need that for?" Stuttered Lori.
"Six across your arse, that's what for, your spanking was just a warm up!"
"I can't go in there; I've only got my bra on! People can see into the kitchen, what would they think?"
"They'll think, there's a girl that's had a hard spanking, and she's lucky that she hasn't had her dirty little flirty mouth soaped as well."
Mouth soaped? That idea had never even crossed her mind, so she quickly dashed off to the kitchen before Tom thought more on it. Lori grabbed the pallet knife, all the time thinking "he must never see the credit card statement".
When she came back into the living room, Tom was standing by the end of the sofa; his erection painfully obvious under his PJ bottoms. She handed him the instrument of her immediate correction, her lower lip trembling in anticipation.
"Right over the arm of the sofa, bottom right up. Six of the best coming up."
The first one shocked her. It didn't so much hurt on impact; it slowly burned into her behind. Such an innocuous kitchen implement how could it cause such pain?
By the fourth stroke, she could taste the salt of her tears in her mouth. When the sixth stroke fell, she thought to herself, "he must never ever see the credit card statement!"
In the blur of tears and pain, she heard the plastic pseudo paddle hit the floor; she felt his hands on her naked hips. She felt herself being lifted slightly; she felt the head of his cock probing at the lips of her sex. She heard a little voice in her head say.
"Where can I leave that statement where he can find it? The one with the 'Bluemountain.com invoice on it?"
Sometimes you know, a fun spanking just can't cut it!
Happy Valentine's Day, from Lori and Tomas!
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Views: 118 · Added: 13 days ago
Happy Valentine to all you lovely Ladies, as you open your eyes,
Let the first thing you see be your lover wearing only red roses,
Carrying a breakfast tray full of your favorite goodies and treats,
Then a day of relaxation with many loving kisses and hugs along the way,
A candlelit dinner with romance the main course and loving the dessert,
Followed by a full body warm oil massage that will warm your very core,
A luxurious bubble bath for you as your lover washes you with loving,
Scented candles flickering as soft romantic music floats over the room,
Carried and gently lowered on to the soft warm and welcoming bed,
May your eyes close slowly with the vision of your lover over you,
Lowering to plant luscious erotic kisses to parts of your body,
That will have you gasping and shivering with sheer joy and delight,
The promise of a night of pleasure that will be forever remembered.
Happy Valentine to you all.
Thank you for reading,
Views: 120 · Added: 13 days ago
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Views: 126 · Added: 13 days ago
Indulging in manipulative behavior is a sure way to earn a spanking from me, as I don't always address it when I first become aware of it. I like to observe the young lady over time and see how deep this behavior goes, and, by the time I bring it up - usually by surprise, there are no excuses, or talking her way out of the spanking she has coming.
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Views: 180 · Added: 13 days ago
For work, I went to gauge the crowd reactions for 50 Shades of Gray. Of the 33 people in the theater, not including me, 4 walked out after the 45 minutes. There was rolling on the floor laughter out of more than one group of women. The guy in front of me turned to his girlfriend/wife and said, "I spent $8 on that crap. That wasn't romantic. It was about one messed up dude who couldn't even effectively spank his partner. Those were not even erotic sensual spankings OR punitive!"
I don't know what to say... I didn't enjoy it much. But, that was because I found it unrealistic. Just me... Hope someone here enjoys it!
Views: 240 · Added: 13 days ago
All that I am
Loves all that you be
Be kind to our love
And give me what I know I need
Give me kisses that I so cherish
And make me feel so glad
Hold my bottom lovingly
And give me the spanking that I want so bad.
Give me cuddles that I so adore
Hold me safe, hold me secure
And while you hold me over your knee
Give me the spanking I want for sure.
Spank me hard
Spank me complete
Let’s never get out of bed
And please, oh, please, give me the spanking that I seek.
To all the loves of my life, and everyone else,
Happy Valentine’s Day.
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Views: 74 · Added: 13 days ago
With Valentine's Day just a day away, I thought some of you bum lovers might appreciate this sweet treat....if only for a laugh!
A UK company called Edible Anus has been making and selling chocolate buttholes for the last fifteen years. For just a little more than $55.00 you can send your significant other five boxes of chocolate brown stars.
Or, if you want to have a permanent replica of your anus, or one of that special person in your life, you can have yours cast in bronze. The chocolate butthole maker will cast your anus in metal or glass.
Be sure to scroll all the way down to see a video of a lady having her bum hole cast.
Views: 110 · Added: 13 days ago
Waking up was not a chore today. Stepping on the scale I was either going to be up and going out to do my intervals as a motivation to lose or I was going to be down in weight and going out to to my intervals to keep the scaling moving in the right direction. To my happy surprise it was down. Gearing up to run was not as hard today. Even though intervals are not on my fun list. I was prepared to put 110% into my 5/5 and just DO IT!
It also was running though my mind that Capzasin HP on my sit stop does not sound good. I would rather run. After my 10 minute warm up my watch buzzed for my first fast I look down and it says 10 minutes fast! NO!!!!! I have a hard enough time doing a darn 5 minute fast! Positive! think Positive! Only 2 fast not 5 fast better. Knowing as I run into Lambeau Field, and having to see myself on the Jumbo tron, I can hold my head high and know I trained for this as well as I could. Thank you to Everyone that is keeping me on track. I am grateful for all the feedback!
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Views: 88 · Added: 13 days ago
I sure would like to see some women on here show their tits and be spanked with beads on. I'll be so busy this weekend to catch a parade and Fat Tuesday will be a washout but rain don't stop people from parting.
Views: 158 · Added: 14 days ago
Since it's Valentine's day tomorrow, i just wanted to wish all my lovely friends the very happiest of days. Being able to come on here and share my thoughts and feelings with such kind and special people has really made a difference, so thank you. I feel very lucky.
Since tomorrow is a celebration of love, I've been thinking about what i can do to help spread some love and Valentine's day magic,and in my search i came across a delightful little project that i just couldn't resist sharing! Volunteers needed to knit jumpers for penguins injured in oil spills. I didn't think it could possible be any cuter! and just perfect for Valentine's day. If anyone wants to get involved details can be found on the penguin foundation website.
So happy Valentine's day everyone! Tell everyone you love how much they mean to you, speak from your heart and spread kindness. Sending lots of love and hugs wrapped in sunshine magic to you all:)
Views: 149 · Added: 14 days ago
Okay this isnt spanking reLated but I had plans with my best friend to go to the movies to see fifty shades tomorrow and she was gonna spend the night and she told me thT the meds shes on make her tired and she wouldnt be muchnfun and that she is kind of sick. So she asked if we wanted to see it Saturday morning. I had my heart set on seeing it tomorrow plus if shes sick tomorrow wouldnt she be sick saturday. Anyway she says its up to me if i wanted to go with out her or not and i kinda do because im always changing some type of plans for her. And ill just go with someone else. Does that make me bad friend bc i feel like one and i feel guilty.
Views: 191 · Added: 14 days ago
Looking at my self in the mirror today as I read the measurement around my waste, which only confirmed what I already knew, I watched the tears run down my face. How can I keep doing this to myself. After losing 100 lbs., and up until this point keeping it off, I have slipped and gained. Would this have happened if I had someone to convey my lack of self confidence to and my need to be the person that I feel I can be? I just really wanted to crawl back into my bed pull the covers over my head and sleep. I kept thinking of the people that have came up to me and said I am an inspiration and how they wish they could be so motivated to not only have met your goal to complete a Half marathon but now have set a goal to complete a Full marathon. If they all only knew how sad and scared I really am that everyday I have to battle with trying to keep this weight off and always second guessing my goals they would not be saying I am there inspiration.
I decided that because I have no one to help me and I have not gotten up the nerve to self spank. That all I could do was take a deep breath and show everyone I can still do this even though it was just me that needed convincing and I will do my best by training for this marathon. I put my 3 layers of clothes on thinking I could just say at -2 degrees F I could just skip today. And did the only punishment I could think of for myself. I told my mind to tell my body to run. To get your butt moving and do it!
I am writing this now, after running my 45 minute training session, for all to read because I feel that by having to write my thoughts and feeling into words,this is not an easy thing for me to do, might help me understand and find the right path I need to be on. By putting it on spanking tube for all to read will give me the accountability I need. And I am hoping the spankos and disciplinarians may have some advice for how I may be able to keep myself on track.
Views: 145 · Added: 14 days ago
Not spanking-related as such but this article about the Fifty Shades of Grey effect made me laugh: